ardor

hahaha. i just realised smthing. when i was looking for a title for latin, i went to this latin dictionary site and typed in random words that i associated with our dance. and one was touch. hence ardor came up. then i have no idea why, suddenly it occured to me today that ardor meant smthing in english too. [-.- stupid i know] but anyway it means fiery intensity of feeling/passion/intense heat or glow, as of fire. which exactly describes our latin. hahaha (:

wails ): artem's out. he's so bloody delicious. no more pro ballroom dancers alr. blearghs. and i like melissa. i liked her right from e beginning. growls.



his body is like -swoons- hahaha. and has that sexy stare. grins. plus his solo dance was so smooth and phwoar.

my sleeping habits are atrocious. haha. its really getting quite bad :p but its so nice to laze around in bed. and avoid the sun most of e time. my maid says i'm like a vampire. smirks.

damnit. i miss dancing. i think i'm gonna go back for latin after cts.

[edit] i wonder why i still talk about _____ after so much time has passed. shrugs. maybe its my way of trying to cope with how i feel. to try and expel some of the hurt in me. to get rid of all those feelings. i rmb ming once told me not to keep things locked up inside, it ain't good. (though she doesn't follow what she preaches -.-) but yea. i used talking abt it as a form of therapy. but it didn't seem to help. cos partly i couldn't express the way i feel about _____ into words. i dunno how to explain how i feel, how to make them understand why i'm feeling this way. and all that talking just makes everything intensify. so maybe its time to shut up about it all. and keep everything inside. where maybe one day i can finally understand it all. where i don't have to defend myself. its easier. and harder at the same time. [/edit]

: cold water :: damien rice :
the song's so heartachingly beautiful.